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Unreserved Holiness


There is an unreserved holiness that only brings wisdom and praise out from the innermost soul and from everyone around you. It is not only a destination; it is the light brought about by the scepter of Christ!

1. The search for the complete gospel that has already found me

You can refer back to my previous year 2008 blog where I wrote about bible verses that impacted my life:


I remember I was searching for the verses that illuminated St Augustine so that he was converted. I heard from my senior pastor Rev Leechull spoke about the bible verses that influenced St Augustine to conversion. At that time, the orientation of the church pulpit message kept on consoling the congregation, and gave me the impression that to accuse people would be the last thing God desires. i.e. how can these verses fit into a person’s life so as to make a person convert? Are not the verses below a result of conversion (born again) rather than something that converts (makes one born again)? Therefore, I could not fully understand why the following verses actually caused St Augustine (the way I interpret – the start of Christian theology that accords to his own experience, i.e. he wrote “The Confessions”) into conversion. Therefore, I did not list the verse down in my previous year 2008 blog. The following verses were what happened when he was prompted by a childlike voice, and took it as a divine command to open the Bible and read the first thing he saw:

Romans 13:13-14
13 Let us walk properly as in the daytime, not in orgies and drunkenness, not in sexual immorality and sensuality, not in quarreling and jealousy. 14 But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and
make no provision for the flesh, to gratify its desires.

God changed him then at 32 years old through his mother Monica’s prayers of despair but continual hope since young.

Even though I cannot fully understand why the verses nailed St Augustine’s conversion, I kept the above verses deep into my heart. I just cannot forget them as they are from the bible. I cannot twist what I read from the bible to fit my own theology or what I, if my weak mind, has heard.

Along with the above verses, I remember

Psalm 19
1 The heavens declare the glory of God,
and the sky above proclaims his handiwork.
2 Day to day pours out speech,
and night to night reveals knowledge.

8 the precepts of the Lord are right,
rejoicing the heart;
the commandment of the Lord is pure,
enlightening the eyes;

12 Who can discern his errors?
Declare me innocent from hidden faults.

14 Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
be acceptable in your sight,
O Lord, my rock and my redeemer.

For all these years, I realized one thing is absolutely true – the Lord is Holy and His glory is such that I must never show consideration for my weaknesses so that I worship God with compromise. Your weaknesses may come from the conditions and fields God has given you. But those are not for you to compromise God’s greater power through you to open the doors of evangelism. Those weaknesses are placed not for you to show consideration to (as if God loves you so that He will forgo every weaknesses as His favored child of God) so that you can live a more carefree life less of guilt or reproach from God. (If you hear no grief of the Holy Spirit, you either already have your conscience of faith tainted or that you are not born again.) Those weaknesses are placed for you to understand your spiritual calling, to be willing to suffer everything and to go to your end to face God in prayers, so as to attain Christ’s resurrection in getting practical wisdom.

2. Not to abolish the Law or the Prophets, but fulfill them

The 36 lessons are not an end to your conversion, or the experience of the “second” born again. They are a guide, and only a guide. They guide you to live unreserved from the Lord, to the Lord, and in the Lord.

If you really want to evangelize to the unreached, the young that is out of your generation, or a culture that is far beyond yours, you must really know how much you must suffer in the Lord to hold on to God’s promise. Do you value the gospel and the promise of gospelization more than anything else so that you test and approve the things you must do in your work place? When you test and approve, one must know what the absolute conditions are and what the relative conditions are. i.e. when you are at your work place, the relative conditions are about doing your best at your office work. The absolute truth is that you cannot be a slave because you have a gospel too important to compromise. When I face the Lord with even my closest ones worrying for me, I realized I had to do it my way – the way the Lord has shown to me. There is a peace in me that I am not disobeying the people around me, but a peace that God will bring me through, and God will definitely bless the people and company many folds through my obedience. It produces some anxiousness, but I slowly confirmed that those anxiousness are as a result of Satan’s attack as I obey the Lord my God.

If you find it hard to live in your workplace, then make it a point to have a church-centered and brethren-centered lifestyle. Then your perspectives can be build on solid ground and you will not waver like a ship among waves. You might be disobeying the earthly authorities if you keep on having a pulpit-centered, brethren-centered and serving-centered lifestyle, but be sure that if you follow the Lord this way, the Lord will not only deliver you out of it, but the Lord will give you your heart’s desire in the gospel promise of God.

This, in a word, means “unreserved holiness” in all things 24 hours, a point made to focus there and go towards there.

Matthew 5:48
48 You therefore must be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect.

“Unreserved holiness” created in me a new heart. There is a New Creation. That new creation is not by grace that has been made cheap, but by death and resurrection – grace that is made sovereign, and glory that makes every word in the bible alive in you.

3. Praising in the Gospel vs Conscience-Pricking in Religion

The greatest difference between gospel and religion are two folds:
– The gospel is that God has already found you unconditionally, and religion is that you need to keep on trying to find God.
– The gospel is that you can live in unreserved holiness that surpasses every law, but religion from man can never perform this miracle.

An unconditional love may have started to produce unreserved holiness, but a person is transformed when he is trained to go into a total willingness to produce unconditional appreciation for unconditional love of God gives praise from the innermost soul.

Do you notice how the Christian faith differs from all other religions? We praise God! Religions that rely only on the conscience will ponder why their gods need praises from men. (If they praise their gods, their gods will be embarrassed because their gods rely on conscience to help the earthly people.) Do we praise God out of a conscious debt of His love? Frankly speaking, no. God is not a judge who checks if He can impute to us His judgments, for He chose to impute all on His Son Jesus Christ already. We praise the God of Yahweh because we find Him awesomely amazing many times, and we especially find Him awesome because He is steadfast and faithful to us all the time. You would not praise a friend who helps out as a friend in need, but you will praise your own father who has always been so awesome and steadfast by your side, who will make sure you walk right, and who will even give his life for your true happiness.

Psalm 108:1
1 My heart is steadfast, O God!
I will sing and make melody with all my being!

Psalm 109:30-31
30 With my mouth I will give great thanks to the Lord;
I will praise him in the midst of the throng.
31 For he stands at the right hand of the needy one,
to save him from those who condemn his soul to death.

The child of God does not praise God only because he finds the Lord awesome. He only desires to find praise to God.

Sometimes, he may be unconvinced to obey God’s word. However, if he is born again to seek the unconditional love and unreserved holiness of God, you can be rest assured that he will never be at peace unless he submits with an unreserved love to God.

Therefore, pastors, elders, deacons, small group leaders and coworkers, you must teach the sheep how to praise God. Keep your focus right there, and you will forget your own troubles. We do not get crazy for the gospel only when we find it amazing. We know the gospel is our life so that we live in the gospel through praising God.


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Rejoicing in Sufferings?

Through 10 years of discipleship training, I gathered the “revelation” from God how He led our Christ Life Churches through.


1. Being loved and whether our motives of living on earth as honorable children of God are right




Despite being blessed believers, the attacks of the Enemy do come in very real, very tangible ways when we honor Christ with our lives. But this only means that we are true believers, as Satan thinks we are worthy to be attacked. This is on the basis of the identity of the child of God and the promise of God to the ends of the earth, and what we have been learning since the beginning of the church, to be steadfast and be firm in it. Do you have the Spirit of a child of God? We can see it in our motives and our actions, whether we are touched and have the greatest joy when our spirit becomes aligned and restored more with the Spirit of the child of God. This is why we fear God: because a child of God desires to please God. Accusations cannot remain long because it is disconnected with the feeling of how a child of God faces God. God is on our side as we are a child of God, more than how any relative conditions are with us.


2. The truth is still the greatest power even though there is sufferings



Yet, choosing Him doesn’t mean you will escape suffering—it means He will help us be strong enough to endure it. This is the promise that the Holy Spirit is with us. How will He help us to be strong enough to endure through? It is because the Truth and reality that He is with us is still stronger than any of our conditions and sufferings. Through the process of healing, Emmanuel causes us to overcome each and every situation. Over and over again, we become less and less affected by the sufferings, but only look to and value the presence of God more and more. It is through the process that we realize that the truth is still the truth, and that absolute truth can hold everything together just because God is in it. Christ is the only way, the only truth and the only life. We just cannot deny this above all things else.


3. Submission to God in all things is our remnant belief




And with the guidance of the Holy Spirit, we will be able to celebrate that we are getting lumped together with Peter, the disciples, and those who truly suffered–first and foremost, Christ. This is victory, that we have submission already in our basic belief. Even though we are not yet healed or have not overcome in certain parts of our body, we can submit to God. Submission to God is the only matter that can still remain in our lives even if everything fails. This is where the glory of God is manifested. We can have no faith, but God is still faithful to us. You can be weak, but you cannot be weak enough so that you do not desire to submit and walk with God. When this reality dawns upon you, through training, exercising, facing and obeying the Lord over and over again, we then understand that we are people who cannot but submit to God. It just cannot stop at the heart. We preach the gospel not because we are equipped enough to do so, but because it is the commandment of the Lord for us to follow Him, we can still be witnesses because the remnant of our belief is to submit to God, our ever-Almighty Father. One day, our nature just becomes that of one who just listens and follows God as closely as possible, never leaving His sight out from us.


Where are we moving to?




Lastly, God not only allows sufferings. Sufferings are actually shown to be the glorious plan of God. Paul received the promise that he will receive overwhelming understanding how much God can stretch him through how much he must suffer. Through Revelation that Jesus Christ is coming very soon, the reality of symbolism becomes ever closely to discerning each and every Spirit and timetable. It spans the whole history of mankind. It opens a wide variety of understanding that must change from a Gentile mindset into a blessed God-people mindset. All our thinking has to change. This, not only in the content or process of it, but the very whole “chemistry” of it. What I mean by chemistry is this: God’s love Jesus Christ proves that God is already with us before the creation of the world. It is in our spirit that we desire to submit to Him. However, the slightest bit where we cannot see God in this world makes the whole world and ends of the earth groan for Jesus’ second coming. The slightest bit where we cannot see, rely and submit to God is the greatest sufferings. God must show us how much we must suffer. The book of Revelation reveals a great truth: every burden of suffering becomes our burden to complete, preach and give the Spirit as much as possible the purest gospel message. In other words to people suffering, “Rejoice! For you suffer more as you yearn more for the second coming of Christ” and “Do not look at things on earth, but set your eyes on things above.”

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Finding the voice for the current era through my unique conditions of life


Do you have a Christian voice for this era? Both believers and non-believers need the gospel.

There are some who continually have something to say academically, but it might not be sentences that are constructed finely so that they can be used by God. Some voice out because Christian quotes makes the only belief softer. Some voice out because they hope that people may see that God’s word is all-relevant to all our lives. Some voice out because they want their lives to be meaningfully placed in God’s ultimate purpose. Some voice out because they understood and learnt something foundational and true to the gospel, and they want to make what they learn impressed on their hearts. Some voice out because it is what they experienced uniquely out from the valley of death and they hope their experiences can be of help to others. Some voice out so that there can be more variety and an encouragement of spiritual gifts for spreading the good news of Jesus Christ. But we should all move towards a direction of understanding the needs of the era, and voicing out for those gaps of needs.

All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to Christ for the building of His church. The church is Christ’s body. There is nothing wrong with the church since she is Christ’s body. But because the church is in the world, having the mystery of coexisting the faithful and the unfaithful, there is a mission for the church to continue ever-glowing. The evidence that proves the church as perfect, which is the body of Christ, is the unceasing prayers of a small group of people for the church within the church.


What is the English world of churches lacking right now? What is the Chinese world of churches lacking right now? Everyone has a different calling. Some are called to establish theological foundations. Some are called to preach what is spoken only in the bible and not deal with theology. Some are called to preach verse-by-verse bible expositions. Some are called to preach against the demise of morality of a nation and bear love out of it. Some are called to preach for raising a younger generation. But there is one calling that sees and knows what the current era of church is lacking and need our prayers and voices. That calling is found can only be found through “my own unique conditions of life”.

1. Finding the springs of only Christ’s Life

Jesus was born and raised up in less-than-good conditions, but He saw that He was loved by God from the very start. He has no hint of inferiority because He understood that His very own conditions were to reveal the real love and righteousness of God. True gold covered in mud would reveal more of its trueness through refinement and gold-plated mud would soon expose its fakeness. If the set of conditions you have compels you inevitably to go towards the Christ as the only answer, your set of conditions become honorable immediately, and at that moment, thanksgiving overflows. And at that very moment, your set of unchanged conditions make you confidently boast only about Christ as you understood the honorable reason of the existence of your conditions.

2. Enabling the mighty Word of God to take root in one’s life

Jesus was accused so badly, but He never felt accused in His heart because He knew what mighty word of God has come into His heart, and which can actually come in! How then will they call on him in whom they have not believed? <Ro 10:14-15> “And how are they to believe in him of whom they have never heard? And how are they to hear without someone preaching? And how are they to preach unless they are sent? As it is written, “How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the good news!” It could not have happened unless the Holy Spirit has convicted me to believe and accept, thus allowing the mighty word of God (what Christ has accomplished and God’s eternal righteousness and love) to take root in my life.

3. Holy Spirit convicting the world concerning sin and righteousness and judgment

Jesus knew He was in a world unfair, unrighteous and almost everyone wanted to kill, steal and destroy Him. He knew He is going to be deceived but He was able to lay His fears aside. Yet, He willingly allowed the Deceiver Satan to cause harm on Him so that every word of what is written about Him can be fulfilled. Why did He choose the path of submission? John 16:7 says, “Nevertheless, I tell you the truth: it is to your advantage that I go away, for if I do not go away, the Helper will not come to you. But if I go, I will send Him to you.” Are you willing to go through timetable after timetable of refinement in your life? Your conditions never change, and it seems foolish to continue being deceived in the world awaiting the second coming of Christ. But when you allow the Holy Spirit to come in to convict, heal, comfort, and teach, through God’s righteousness and love accomplished by Christ, He will gradually mould you to become a holy and powerful life. Only exciting new things of doors of evangelism await you.

There are many Christian voices in the world. Yet, many of them are researching God but never enjoying God. It is not the bible that we need to study. Rather, it is the message (in the Scriptures) that needs (to be preached in order) to study us. If you allow yourself to be studied by God’s word and the Holy Spirit in this current era of voices from churches around the world, your subjective experience will enable you to draw out an objective sword of God’s word that knows what to preach to this current generation / era / world.

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Unlimited Freedom For Humility and Devotion


The whole point that the King of kings leads the whole history of mankind is to give a new birth to the power of humility and devotion to God. Humility and devotion can be recognized, but it cannot be emulated. The Spirit of humility and devotion can be found in Jesus setting exemplary examples on earth, progressing gradually towards the cross in submission, and reigning but yet co-working with His disciples even till now. It can also be found in Mary anointing Jesus with the most expensive perfume and wiped Jesus’ feet with her hair <John 12>. It was just 6 days before Jesus was to be lifted up and Satan, the ruler of the world, will be cast out. We are moving towards Good Friday, which comes in 6 days too.

If a true believer desires and really makes it a point to enter into serving, he grabs on to the promise that the privilege of serving will reward him with heavenly inheritance and blessings to his life. The promise of Jesus’ power is given to him. Yet, once he steps into serving, he will find as if that power is taken from him. Servitude requires faithfulness and continuance. It can continue because there is humility and devotion in Christ. In the whole nature of serving, the whole point is becoming like Jesus in humility and devotion. This has always been the traditional gospel from Abraham, till David, till Jesus, till the ministers with the Spirit of God. The white hairs, loss of hair, wrinkles that are lines of compassion and understanding are evidences from old pastors who serve in humility and devotion to Christ.

Humility and devotion are not just a matter of willingness. Why can a person continue to be faithful? Endurance cannot last, but finding the hand of God always helping lasts.

– Trying (religion) does not work, because it seeks for what it already knows, which is to say that there is already ignorance. The whole spiritual atmosphere has to be changed (gospel).

– Keeping on thinking whether one is worthy enough for God opens a loophole for where Satan can come in and accuse and take away your strength. The whole belief and lifestyle have to enter into God’s ultimate gospelization purpose for progressing the times and world.

– Waiting upon the time when sufferings are gone definitely does not work because the end of the deceived mind is just to get into a self-thought ideal world of no more spiritual battles. At your difficult period, God’s plan is to stretch your vessel.

– Following the need to keep to a schedule (immediately follow the flesh) after submitting just one time does not work too. You may be too impetuous, anxious and dependent on a feelings-based belief. Listening in to the instructions of the Holy Spirit will pave the way for step-by-step submission to His humility and devotion.

– Trying your best (or half-heartedness) to remember many promises in the head do not work too. You have forgotten about miracles testifying to God’s help happen when your serving is God-driven.

This was what happened to me when the serving gets tough. At first, I felt really hard to breathe. Then I learnt to give thanks for the privilege to serving. As I accept the challenge to serve more by stretching myself, I became aggressive and even saw quarrels as I reasoned out with God’s righteousness in me. But it just wasn’t the right spirit. God told me to be more gracious. Therefore I struggled and prayed. I remembered Jesus responding with healing an invalid even though he complained. The invalid was already lame for 38 years. It was not just a complaint. He really could see no hope at all. That is why Jesus healed him even though there is not a hint of faith in that invalid <John 5>, because the heart of the invalid had been made ready for 38 years. In the end, I knew God’s word for me; He wanted me to continue in serving faithfully. He says, “It is only at your busyness, yet knowing that it is the plan of God for you (four gospelizations), that you can learn to rely on the Holy Spirit, and learn the how-to in relying on Him.” That is really grace. When it came, the greater Spirit of humility and devotion came into me.

How can God come and help us? The following 3 stages or levels of understanding – which in fact is the Trinity – the Word of God, knowing Christ Himself, and reliance on the Holy Spirit are given so that we will go towards desiring, apprehending and embodying the source of all blessings, i.e. God Jehovah, so that humility and devotion are borne into and out from us.

1) Truth -> Promises

When the truth is out, we are set free from all forms of misunderstandings, deceptions and unneeded accusations.

John 8:32 “Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

Freedom is not doing whatever you want unbridled towards chaos, but being able to manage everything in the most orderly and controlled way.

God is alive. He loves you. Jesus died for you, and the Father has now bound Himself to give you only good things. There is another set of truths. You will die. You will live forever in the new heavens and new earth if you have a born again belief. For now, you are an exile on the earth. Nothing on earth is truly worth putting your hope in.

When the above becomes God’s personal promise to you, everything will start getting meaningful when you align in all your ways to God’s ultimate purpose in building His kingdom, exalting Christ and gathering all His children on earth. With that, you are promised with all forms of creativeness in serving Him as He has given you every kind of conditions without coincidence but with the purpose of blessing yourself, your family, the region, and all nations.

The truths of God have now become alive. However, they may be conditional to your state of spiritual life. E.g. If you have accusations in your heart, the promises may in fact become points that make you think you are far away from God because you just cannot experience or believe in the promises.

2) Christ -> Truly believe

Galatians 2:20 says “I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”

Realizing that righteousness is not from myself, but it is Christ’s righteousness that is now found in me because through His blood for me, I can now come to the throne of God any time. I do not come because I am better off, but I come because my life is no longer mine. This rids off of all accusations, inferiority and any feelings of sorrows you might have struggled to come stand before the Lord. “God has His plan for me even through my weaknesses” <Ro 8:28>. There can be sins that must have consequences, but Christ’s love cannot be abolished because of any imperfect behaviors.

God sees you as perfect. That is because of Jesus’ perfection, not yours. You deserve hell. Therefore, it makes you all the way understanding God’s immense and amazing grace on you. Your life, your expressions and your everything – you have no right to be unhappy.

Apprehending Christ makes one understand what identity he has.

<John 1:12, 13> “But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God, who were born, not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man, but of God.”

Taking Christ upon yourself, you are now starting to taste what is meant by the authority of God’s children. But it cannot just stay here. Christ went through death and resurrection in order to give transforming life to followers. He promised that with the gift of the Holy Spirit.

3) Holy Spirit -> Life and Lifestyle That Lives out and Testifies to the Spirit of Christ

<2Co 3:17> “Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.”

The theologians from the 16th Century till now had suffered much in order to bring about the purity and completeness of God’s Word.

<Acts 2:17> “And in the last days it shall be, God declares, that I will pour out my Spirit on all flesh, and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams”.

Those who believe Jesus in being crucified in the flesh and arisen already have the Holy Spirit. The baptism of the Holy Spirit comes at the same time you find out that the Holy Spirit is working in you all these while. All your conditions, all your timetable, from past till present, even into the future, are all the very conditions God has glorified and will be glorifying for His use. The Holy Spirit is co-working with you right now. No one can truly submit to the Lord. True submission comes from Holy Spirit working through us.

When your heart is turned to the Lord, the Spirit will reveal Himself to us. When the Holy Spirit comes upon you, you will rely on the Holy Spirit’s comfort, instructions, and anointing, you yourself being His vessels or witnesses of His great work. Such knowledge and reliance on the Holy Spirit is unlimited.

How do I know if I am living on the edge of the Holy Spirit?

(1) You enjoy the Spirit of Son-ship

Many believers are un-assured of their lives. Their prayers are only asking the Lord for help without any confidence that their lives are blameless, accomplished by the blood of Christ. However, there are remnants that are like Noah even when the whole world has turned upon them. They are blameless because God looks at them as blameless.

<Ps 15:1-2>

O Lord, who shall sojourn in your tent? Who shall dwell on your holy hill?

He who walks blamelessly and does what is right and speaks truth in his heart;

<Ps 24:9-10>

Lift up your heads, O gates! And lift them up, O ancient doors, that the King of glory may come in.

Who is this King of glory? The Lord of hosts, He is the King of glory!”

(2) You receive and see promises: Emmanuel, protection, guidance, providence, and accomplishment

Some believers only receive fulfillments through prayers. However, those with the Spirit confirm promises through prayer fulfillments.

<Ps 18:32-37>

the God who equipped me with strength

and made my way blameless.

He made my feet like the feet of a deer

and set me secure on the heights.

He trains my hands for war,

so that my arms can bend a bow of bronze.

You have given me the shield of your salvation,

and your right hand supported me,

and your gentleness made me great.

You gave a wide place for my steps under me,

and my feet did not slip.

I pursued my enemies and overtook them,

and did not turn back till they were consumed.

(3) According to the promises received, the Spirit of promises burns and tells you to throw away your own motives, purpose, contents, and methods

<Ps 22:1>

My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?

Why are you so far from saving me, from the words of my groaning?

<Ps 17:13-14>

Arise, O Lord! Confront him, subdue him!

Deliver my soul from the wicked by your sword,

from men by your hand, O Lord, from men of the world whose portion is in this life.

You fill their womb with treasure; they are satisfied with children, and they leave their abundance to their infants.

(4) Through the Holy Spirit, you can confirm that the Holy Spirit is pleased, is joyful and is praising you by seeing that He loves your thoughts, judgments and the words you speak to others

Believers nowadays do not really enjoy walking with God because they cannot see the support of the Lord with them. But in the midst of troubles and even in the imminent threat of death, David can see God treating David like an honored guest even amidst fiery attacks from enemies.

<Ps 23:5>

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;

You anoint my head with oil;

my cup overflows.”

(5) Prayer continues rhythmically and unceasingly in intimacy and depths of communion in the Spirit

May our prayers open up the spiritual ears to hear the word of God in all things, all places, and at all times.

<Ps 19:1-2, 6, 14>

He heavens declare the glory of God, and the sky above proclaims his handiwork.

Day to day pours out speech, and night to night reveals knowledge

and there is nothing hidden from Its heat

Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.”

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Somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead


But we are not like orphans, so that when we are weak, we can only rely on ourselves to overcome and reconcile everything in us. God is our Father. He is there when we fail, so that we will keep on being lifted up by Him from failures. His power works by intervening into our limited knowledge and emotions. God accepts us; therefore, make it a point to open up to Him. Intervention always produces struggles, but because of Sola gratia (grace alone), we know that the struggles are different from mere men; the struggles instead start from a regenerative life that moves towards spiritual healing and ends at conquering everything. If God is not proven right by having us go through repentance and humility, He won’t be able to work completely through grace alone next time. It is neither about spiritual enlightenment first, nor works first; it is about God-enablement first.

When we accept Christ’s forgiveness of our weaknesses, how do we make it less cheap of God’s grace, but really in much thanksgiving of God’s immense grace? It is when we accept neither based on the measure of our earnest plea for help so that we felt very peaceful as do the godly religious people do, nor that we can promise we won’t commit any weaknesses again. It is at the moment when we accept it as normally based on the seal of the Holy Spirit’s work on us that cannot be erased or forgotten. This work is God’s work on salvation, based alone on His initiative, which is indescribably enormous that it must work out all salvation for all our Christian life.

How do we get the power to come to us to regenerate our lives so that we can say "no" in setting apart? It is neither because we have no choice but leave everything to the turn of events that may randomly help us, nor when we felt our faith is better so that we can overcome the earthly pull. It is the moment when we realize that our Christian walk has to go through sufferings (or the length of the test of time) in order for our earthly mind to transcend just because of the only reason of the world’s existence, i.e. till the coming of our Lord Jesus. Just like Jesus was nailed on the cross, He led all to the grave and led all to the heavens; it was this suffering to obey God all the way (from the cross to the grave, from the grave to the sky) that produces power that overcomes the world. For example, when we are trying our best to guard our hearts and minds, the first thing that comes to our mind is testing “Am I truly happy?” When we keep on looking for satisfaction, there becomes an unbelief that results, i.e. “not satisfied = I am not there in the presence of God yet = my faith is weak”. This, essentially, is the tinge of disbelief that comes from Satan’s accusation, actually causing us to lose joy away! Let that go, for you have tried and the Lord has not meant to help you now to have joy. The Lord’s will is not to take that suffering away. Instead of trying to look away from the grave and put your eyes in heaven, look to the grave at that moment. God’s will at that moment is for you to die and be buried with Christ, so that somehow, God can lead me to attaining to the resurrection from the dead. Php 3:10-11 “I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.”

Seek for Christ’s power. That power is held in things invisible, described in terms like “timetable”, “spiritual blessings”, your “values” and “life philosophy”. Then bend your heart towards these truths, so that He will direct your paths.

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My Jesus Satisfies

Drafted 2012-10-25

Hell and destruction are never satisfied, and the lust of the eyes, flesh and boast of the world never satisfy their hunger for us.

Pro 30:15-16 puts this in the best of words, saying

The leech has two daughters— Give and Give!
There are three things that are never satisfied, Four never say, “Enough!”:
The grave,
The barren womb,
The earth that is not satisfied with water—
And the fire never says, “Enough!”

Death/Hell is never satisfied. Emptiness wants even more evil. Our human ways always loves the wine and merry-making of the world. And the desires of our flesh never finish burning!

Of course these things happen to us when we accidentally fell. But what happens when you do not seek for anything in the world any more? What happens when we know it in our hearts that we really do not have any desires for these anymore that the world keeps on racing to get? By centering on brethrens, going through confirming that all conditions given to us are the best, especially the more difficult relationships of those around us, we may have gone through many roads of the cross. We have born our own cross for some time, so that when we look back, our hearts have died to the things of the world. Even when we fall, we know we just need God more by coming to Him as children of God, receiving the power of repentance, and renewing ourselves. But what happens when we have died?

A small voice comes. As in <Matthew 16>, The Spirit of Christ says, “Who do you say I am?” As in <John 21>, “Do you love (agape) me?” Do you take it with your utmost joy when we respond to the Lord, “Feed My lambs”? I cried when I heard this. (<John 21> never fails to convict me over and over again.) What about you? We may need Jesus and hunger for Him because we have problems. Once the problems are solved, we may need Jesus because we want to see His Word imprinted on us to give us the promise that the world cannot give us. We may want to follow Jesus because we want to view everything in His covenanted perspective because the pulling power of the world is just so strong. When we see that we long for Jesus, the Spirit in us comforts us that we are drawn to Him, that in our true self, we actually love Him. When the seal upon us has begun sealing us a second time, so that we cannot deny but lose our lives for our families and those around us because we have prayed for them and they are God-given to us, we go through sufferings to battle through understanding that the Lord is pleased with us. We know, but do we really love Jesus? When we have time to spare, do we want to read the bible and go into the realms of prayers? When we are tired, do we go to the Lord to be filled with strength? When we are tempted, do we run to Him, not because we are pitiful, but because we want to be found in His love? When God tells us to prepare messages to lead small groups and messages, do we love to go into receiving insights of His word? Are you in a state so that you cannot live without Jesus, or are you in a state of enjoying everything Jesus planned just because He lives? Do you like Jesus?


At our state, we may say “Lord, I love you”, but really, as a friend. How can I love You as You have loved me unconditionally? But the Word of God always talks about unconditional love to God and to brethrens. It is found throughout the whole New Testament Bible. The reality of weaknesses (Satan’s great lie) and the reality of people’s self-righteousness (She eats and wipes her mouth, and says, “I have done no wickedness.”), the true face of Satan – have we not seen and thus be greatly thankful to the Lord for His deliverance so that we may become sons of God?

To love God because He has given us salvation – this is the greatest love. To love God because He has directed my paths to eternal inheritance to the ends of the earth – this is the greatest love. To love God because He sets me free by giving me the Holy Spirit. To love because I am provided with the best conditions everywhere I go – this is His love. To love because I am sanctified to be purer – this is His love. To love because He gave me fruits of brethren relationships that last – this is His love. Fill this in, you little man. All these are unconditional. Without the love of God, can you love Him? Agur said,

“Surely I am more stupid than any man, And do not have the understanding of a man. I neither learned wisdom. Nor have knowledge of the Holy One.” <Proverbs 31:2-3>

This is the start of understanding. This is the start of you grasping further about the Love of God. This is the start of you being able to agape love God.


One or two times of saying “I love Jesus” is easy. But can you be continually satisfied of His love? This is the mystery of prayers. The natural reaction of loving God is communicating deeper and more lovingly than before. More than continuous prayers, it is about scheduled prayers. Scheduled prayers are about “not forgetting His loving unconditional words of accomplishments”, let His perfect will renew your mind and thus transform your heart to love Him from a phileo friendship love to an agape unconditional love.

1) Give the right words of life:

Praying to my Lord, my God, I am Your son. All my life, my everydays are in Your hands of holding to the ends of the earth. May Your kingdom not pass but come into the depths of my spirit. I seek Your concrete plans for each thing I do, for You have already purposed in all things for my heart. For all that I need daily, open my eyes to see spiritual insights, wisdom, health, necessities, and testimonies. Let “love and submission” become the standard of whether I have sinned. Allow me the power of repentance. Expand loving relationships with all around me. Bring them out of their problems to see You clearer. May You abolish away all evil and temptations because I want to remain in You. Because I just want Your glory to be filled all around me.

2) Receive the gentle and upright Spirit:

Waiting upon His living response to us, His convictions reaches my heart. Your love and grace follows me. At each moment, I can feel the Spirit supporting me. Strength, love, self-control, peace, joy and freedom appear in my heart. A natural desire to praise Jesus all the days of my life praising enters. Satisfied upon being satisfied, seal upon seal, submission, continuous prayers, turn of timetable, strengthening the battle in the heart no matter what, it all comes in the heart. The heart receives a heart of a big courageous man, driving away all that is fake.

All the days of my life, Lord, I want to die to the prince of the air, be totally satisfied in burying myself in Your unconditional love for me, and make a love story movie between You and I before the end of days.

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Unsealing the paradoxes in your life (Part 1)

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Do you know that there are 7 paradoxes in your life? Let’s open them! (They are well ordered in the 5 gospel messages progressive-parallelized revealed in your life.)

1. White horse <= Emmanuel Unsealed

God has never left you, but has always been with you. You are made in the image of God, and Jesus, the incarnation of God, showed that you are the Jesus in today’s era.

Before the end comes, with limited days on earth, you are the witness to the full gospel as a testimony to all nations. Your prayers bent on conquest will conquer the ends of the world.

The times are less; the days are few. Do not let your spirit be reminiscent of the past. Because the days are evil, love and redeem every time right now. This is the day that the Lord has made, to fulfil His covenant for you.

2. Red horse <= The Only Problem Unsealed

Of all your labour, the only problem is that you do not realize that Satan has subtly infiltrated your life and put a deceitful word in it.

That word has grown into ideologies (legalism, mysticism, humanism, prosperity) so that you live your way life believing this false passage. The reason why you fail is because you slipped into a state of disbelief.

You are originally given with the full gospel like Joseph and Daniel. This full gospel makes you the original elite saint that has dreams, wisdom and understanding ten times better than all the visionary, aspiring, inspiring and creative leaders in your realm. By the Truth alone, believe, and let every Truth you have heard to come to live out into your spirit, soul, body, lifestyle, relationships, finance and ministry. There is no way to overcome the unbelieving, stubborn or “I can’t” in everyone you meet unless you influence them by your Spirit.

3. Black horse <= The Only Answer Unsealed

There is only one salvation Jesus Christ. Yet, the world is all but an upfront deepest and darkest void of the answer of Jesus Christ alone.

Humankind can promise everything; religions can help you deny desires into peace; the monotheistic Christianity can even give you a strong fortitude outlook of life. Yet, losing interest in the perfect gospel, your ears weighed and your eyes dazed, one day, you lose the need for God’s Word. You begin to only care about your own matters. Do not be carried along by fast connectivity of acquaintances with smartphones. Instant but easy relationships based on surface courtesy only push apart true fellowship that can only be formed through natural affection. The deficiency is not just inconvenience; rather the famine of the Spirit.

Where is the person who loves solitude with God at every opportunity now? Fix a time to meditate and pray. Go into the Christ altar culture as a high priest imploring on the Truth that brings the Spirit. Let oil and wine, the grace and the joy of the Spirit, become the groundwork, parcel and bouquet of your brethren living.

4. Pale horse <= The Child of God Unsealed

You have the most successful identity as a child of God. But you begin to compromise. Your conscious mind forgets that you are “the child of God”. People influence and pressing situations come, and you start to lose control on your feelings or hold more adamantly to your motives.

People who are beautiful, infamous, influential and charismatic catch your eyes. You begin in need to pursue and please their qualities in yourself to satisfy own intentions, greed, promotion, possession, success, keeping the best and leaving inheritance only “for my own child”. But in a person that God has created, there is in him what is more important than the whole world!

At the origin, such people never prepare for heaven, never really love the Lord, never in the heart desire to submit to the Lord as their sole purpose of life is “Lord, give me, give me”. Slowly, people born again pale in the midst of them. There is no more cross message in the sermons.

Four disciplines come: war, sickness, retrenchment and oppression. When children of God are strong, all beasts become small animals. But when child of God becomes pale, the strength of beasts all around strengthens. A fourth is killed.

<Is 60:1-2> says “Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you. For behold, darkness shall cover the earth, and thick darkness the peoples; but the Lord will arise upon you, and his glory will be seen upon you.” Your life messages must have the Cross Message. Messages must go into the death and resurrection of the heart. Be vigilant, not in anxiousness against darkness, but in keeping the watch of the full manifestation of God to the pure child of God with the testimony of the blood, the water, and the Spirit.

To be continued in part 2..